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I'm fine.
It's just ... so much has been happening lately, that I just don't know anything anymore.
I'm not used to dealing with real life.
I have this bad habit of running away from the things I need to face.
It's because I'm scared of being affected.
I just want to live in my happy-go-lucky bubble forever.
And I could because I was satisfied with what I had.
Then some higher force decided to give me something else.
Something I thought I never have. Something I never thought I'd even need.
But now that I have it. I don't want to let go.
Goddamn. Why am I even writing about this? I'm sorry.
Sometimes I think I make a big deal out of things that don't matter. It matters to me but to others, I guess it's 'normal'. But I'm scared. I don't know why ... but I'm so scared lately. My own fear is scaring me. I just don't know anymore.
But I think it must be a big deal because I haven't cried in almost two years ... yet now I feel like crying all the time.
WELL FUCK THIS.
It's just ... so much has been happening lately, that I just don't know anything anymore.
I'm not used to dealing with real life.
I have this bad habit of running away from the things I need to face.
It's because I'm scared of being affected.
I just want to live in my happy-go-lucky bubble forever.
And I could because I was satisfied with what I had.
Then some higher force decided to give me something else.
Something I thought I never have. Something I never thought I'd even need.
But now that I have it. I don't want to let go.
Goddamn. Why am I even writing about this? I'm sorry.
Sometimes I think I make a big deal out of things that don't matter. It matters to me but to others, I guess it's 'normal'. But I'm scared. I don't know why ... but I'm so scared lately. My own fear is scaring me. I just don't know anymore.
But I think it must be a big deal because I haven't cried in almost two years ... yet now I feel like crying all the time.
WELL FUCK THIS.
Massive Update!
I changed my mind again. I went back to my initial college plans ... i.e: my plan since I realized I was damned good in English and that I love Literature when I was 8 ... I'm going into Literature with plans to become an English teacher. Of course, I might change my mind. It doesn't really matter. I'll think about it later.
Sooo ~ I decided to massively spam dA with some updates. Nothing extraordinary. KTHXBAI!
(Spring break is coming soon! I can RP and return to MSN again! Yattaaaaaaaaa ~)
College Art Portfolio
AN ART-RELATED POST LOL.
I'm applying for 3D Animation and CGI at Montreal's very own Dawson College ~ and since I'm giving in my application on the 21st ... I basically have two weeks to finish my portfolio. -headdesk-
I've 6 artworks in it so far.
WISH ME LUCK THERE'S ONLY, LIKE, 50 PLACES IN THIS PROGRAM OUT OF, LIKE, 300-500 APPLICANTS. OTL.
100 truths (oh why not?)
001. Real name → *BEEP CENSORED*
002. Nickname(s)→ Dee, Iggy, Igs, Ein, Coco, Jackie Chan ... I can go on.
003. Zodiac sign → ARIES
004. Male or female → Biologically female
005. Elementary → YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE. MY ONLY SUNSHINE. YOU MAKE ME HA-- *shuts up*
006. Middle School → DOESN'T EXIST.
007. High School → I'm graduating this year.
008. Hair color → Black.
009. Long or short → I prefer it short ... but it's getting longer, orz.
010. Loud or Quiet→ It depends, but I'm generally loud.
011. Sweats or Jeans → Comfortable.
012. Phone or Camera → *cheats* Lapto
Mabinogi
Yes. Dammit. Yes.
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